I remember when I was working on one of my assignments and I ran across a quote that said something like this: “The older I get the more I learn that I don’t know anything.” It was something along those lines. As I get older, I find that quote to be even truer as the days go by. There’s so much that I don’t understand. Sometimes I cannot believe how scary life can be. Anything can switch at any moment. In my past post “The End of the 6 Week Challenge” I mentioned how I lost two family members in a 2-week span last month. The pain has been unreal. A couple days before Christmas we lost a close friend of the family, and it feels like a sick twisted joke. That makes 3 deaths in less than a 2-month span. I hate when people say death happens in threes, because it’s always so scary when it comes around. I come from a large family so I’m very familiar with loss, but not so close together. I know cynical people would say death is a part of life and we have to just move on, like that’s going to make anyone instantly feel better. We know it’s a part of life, but that doesn’t make it hurt any less.
Life have its way of shocking you and rocking your world. Sometimes it changes for the better and other times it’s the opposite. My family endured so much pain and hardship in the past decade. It’s hard to stay positive during times like this. I was listening to that song: Why does bad things happen to the good people? It really made me think. The nicest and sweetest people seem to experience so much pain. What’s really amazing is that most of them don’t let their circumstance change who they are. I know I am not the only one who experienced pain and loss this year, so to everyone who also went through this I want to say I understand. I pray that you receive strength and healing. I don’t understand why life hits us when we’re already down, but I know somehow, we will get through it. It won’t be easy at all, but with time the pain will lessen.
For the new year I plan to stay focus to keep me distracted. I might not have all the answers, but one thing I do know is that I want to spend a lot more time with my family. I want to learn how to manage my stress and anxiety and take better care of me. I want to be present in the moments and make everyday count. Life is truly short, and we have to make the best of it. NEVER take anyone you love for granted. ALWAYS tell them that you love them and give them a big hug every chance you get.
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