Over the years I tend to go back and forth on where I want to be. When I was a kid, I craved the big city. I wanted to be surrounded by the lights. I wanted to see skyscrapers and I wanted to live in a place surrounded by endless opportunities. This is what I wanted the majority of my life. As I got older, I saw the beauty in towns that had the best of both worlds. You know those towns that have everything that you need and everything that you want is just 30 to 45 minutes away. That was the dream. Until the last 5 years I saw the appeal of smaller towns. You know the kind of small towns where everything is in one area. The town that has one bakery, one diner, one grocery store and one little bed and breakfast. A place where everyone knows each other. I know there are a lot of people who dream of leaving towns like that to chase big opportunities, and I get that. On the other hand, I also see the appeal of being in a small town. When I watch shows like Gilmore Girls, The Hart of Dixie and Schitt’s Creek I can’t help but wonder what it would be like to live in those places. Looking at the little towns like Stars Hollow, Bluebell and Schitt’s Creek makes it seems like small towns are the kind of places where you can feel free. A place where stress won’t overly consume you. I could see myself living in a place like Stars Hollow. It has a ton of charm and appeal. I cannot help but wonder if there are any real towns like that. I could just picture my day to day, and actually being involved in town events. The pictures in my head are nice and peaceful but knowing me I could see myself getting bored after a while. I’ve always been the type of person who yearned for adventure. I hope that one day I will be at a place where I would have the kind of job that I can do from anywhere, and that I would be successful enough to be able to afford two places.
I want to spend half of the year in a small town, and the other half in the city. I want to seek adventures and thrills in the city, and I want to relax and refuel in a little town. I want a balance. I long for both scenarios and although it might seem complicated and a little much it describes me. I am complicated and complex. I am like that in all areas of my life so it’s really not that surprising. I can never be thrown into a box. There are so many parts of me and so many desires that I have. I’ve chosen a difficult path and a roller coaster of a journey. Sometimes I feel like three different people in one body, and I’m trying to feed into all their desires at once. It can become overwhelming, but it can also be exhilarating. So, cheers to all the people living in the big city and cheers to all the people living in a small town. I hope that I can experience them both in my life’s voyage.
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