For the past few months, I’ve been wanting to start writing and journaling every day. I used to always write when I was feeling overwhelmed or depressed, but I never would write every day. I started writing everyday for a month last year. I slowed down a bit and then started up again in the beginning of the month. One thing that I recognize then and now, is that when you write every day you feel more emotionally stable. I used to keep my emotions bottled up, until I got older. As the years went on, I felt like I couldn’t suppress my feelings as much as I could when I was younger. I started to vent to the people who were close to me, but sometimes I felt like I didn’t want to be that person who’s always connected to negativity. I didn’t want to be seen as the depressed girl who’s always has something going on in her life. I didn’t want to get deep during every conversation. Sometimes I just want to keep things light. Since I’ve been journaling every day, I feel like I let my pencil, pen or keyboard do the crying. I don’t feel the need to vent to family or friends. I’m not saying it’s bad to do that. I think it’s great to have someone to talk to, but for me personally I didn’t want to always seem broken to people. I don’t want to be known for it. After everything I been through the past few years, I just wan to get my emotions in check, and I want to think positive about the future. It’s been so hard to deal with everything, but I can’t be a prisoner to these feelings and emotions. I need to continue to set aside time to center myself by journal, meditating, bible-reading and trying to reprogram my thoughts. I just need to learn how to be present in the moment. Every day I make sure I mention things that I am happy about or thankful for in the present moment. It’s really been helping a lot, and I’ve become way less needy. 😁Lol. Once things get better and it looks like we’re going to come out of this pandemic, then I will go back to counseling. Until then, I will continue to write and release every emotion I have on paper.
It’s always important to practice self-care and finding healthy ways to express/deal with your emotions. What are somethings that you do? Let me know in the comment section below. 😊
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