In a previous post I’ve mentioned one of my favorite quotes from The Office. It was the last season and Andy Bernard stated, “I wish there was a way to know you’re in the good old days before you’ve actually left them.” That quote stuck with me since the very first time I heard it. I remember asking myself if I would know when I’m currently in them or would it pass me by. Sadly, I pretty much can say that the good old days are in the past. Too many important people have left this earth way too soon. I can’t imagine having my best days without them. Family is more important than any career, grand experience, or material things. So I genuinely cannot say my best days are ahead. I thought because of my age the best days were still in front of me, but I realize life can throw you many curve balls. I never thought my best days would’ve happened so early on. Like Andy Bernard says next: “The weird thing is now I’m exactly where I want to be. I’ve got my dream job at Cornell, and I’m still just thinking about my old pals.” If somehow, I reach my dream job, I can see myself feeling proud of that, but also thinking about my family members who are no longer here. I always wished to be successful and repaying the people I love. They have done so much for me that it pains me that for some of them I will never get that opportunity to give back. The thought of it all is just so depressing, but I had to look at it another way.
Yes, my best days (in general) are behind me, but I can still hope for my best career days, or the days that I will become my best self. I’m always striving for my dreams. I’m always trying to become better. I’m working on every dream and skill that I ever wanted to achieve. There are a lot of goals that I want to accomplish and skills that I want to gain. Like in my post from a few weeks ago, Becoming Your Own Version of Extraordinary, I’m trying to become my own version of extraordinary. I’m aiming for my best travel exploring days, career days, personal growth days, physical fitness days, creative and highly skilled days. I’m aiming for stronger connections and better health. So, I can still have my best days in specific areas of my life, and I’m going to try to focus on that to keep me going. My life has forever changed, and there’s a big gaping hole of emptiness without their presence, but I’m happy to have had them in my life. I couldn’t have asked for better people to call family. ❤ I hope to make more memories with the family members that are still here, while becoming the best version of myself.
The Rollercoaster that we call Life may be scarier these days, but there’s still so much that I want to do. I’m going to try my best to check off every single thing that has ever been on my list (the small things and the grandiose things). We all need something that we can look forward to (something that keeps us going). So, if you are in the same boat, I hope you can look at this in a unique way as well. There are many lanes where we can still soar in and dominate. It’s not over yet. We owe it to ourselves to always strive for better days in any lane of life.
As always, thanks for tuning in.🙂 XoXo