This year feels like the year of clarity. A lot of us are seeing things that we either ignored for years or just didn’t ever notice. Some marriages fell apart in the midst of quarantine, while other marriages that were previously falling apart strengthened. A lot of people were forced to change jobs, and a lot of people made a big leap and started their own business (because they actually had the time now). It’s kind of interesting to see how life is now. It’s like so much has changed, but yet so much stayed the same. I’m usually a person that hates change, but after all the madness this year I am ready for change. When the world is upside down you start to see what really matters and what it is that you truly want.
For the last few years, I’ve been having a hard time figuring out my passion. I had a list of things that I wanted to succeed in, but I didn’t have a clear-cut passion. I can’t remember if it was the beginning of this year or the end of last year when I realized what I truly wanted. It was something that was in front of me this whole time, but I guess it was just the fear that got in my way. Out of every project that I ever started it just seem like this was the hardest one to achieve. I just chalked it up as a pipe dream. I wanted an easier path, and this was the biggest gamble. My fear was wasting more time than I already have, but I guess I was looking at it all wrong. I shouldn’t look at as if I don’t succeed doing this, I’ve wasted my time. I should look at it as I’m wasting my time not trying something that I really want to do. They say you know what you are meant to do when you keep coming back to it. You just can’t get away from it. It feels like I’ve been going back to this for over 15 years. It started when I was a kid, but I just didn’t feel like it could ever be a real option for me. I just felt like I wasn’t good enough to succeed at something like this. As scary as it is, I must see it through. When I’m ready I will reveal what it is, but for now I will continue to work in silence.
I just want to say that if there’s a dream that you cannot let go of then maybe it’s a sign. Maybe this is the time to go for it. If you haven’t started working on it then start now. If you already have started on it then keep going. Life is too short to waste time doing something you hate. There’s no time like the present to make a change. So, what is it that you cannot let go of? What dream is calling you? ….. Maybe it’s time to pick up. ☎📞
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