Today I had to remind myself that real change doesn’t happen overnight. It’s hard to break old habits. It’s going to take more than 60 days to break a 15-year habit. I’ve been saying my affirmations everyday and reading more self-help books. I watch motivational videos all the time, and in the moment I feel great. I feel like I can take the world by storm, and then in a day or two I can feel completely different. Doubt and defeat start to creep into my head, and I feel like I’m constantly on the back and forth. What I have learned is that it’s a process. It’s going to take time to reprogram my thoughts. If reading self-help books and watching motivational videos help, then I have to make time to do those things every day until it’s engrained in my mind. It has to be a part of my daily life if I really want to stay consistent. When I’m in a good headspace I love the way it feels. I can see myself achieving my dreams and goals. I feel like it’s within reach and then when I have a down moment, I feel like I’m wasting my time. I just can’t deal with the back and forth. I want to stay in that winner mindset. I want to think my dreams are possible every single day. I want to block out the noise and give it 110% every day. Currently, it’s a struggle, but I know with time and patience I can overcome it. The truth is, I’m not going to give up on my dreams, so I need to do what I have to do in order to be in the right headspace. I want to enjoy the journey without the constant back and forth. I’ve dealt with anxiety all my life, and at this point I just want to do what it takes to gain control over my mind and reprogram my thoughts. It’s going to take time to do it, but it’s going to be worth it.
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