JustGottaMakeIt

          Today I came across a journal prompt that really grasped my attention. It made me think about the past and future. The question was: What’s three things you’d do if you weren’t so afraid? As a person who let fear rule her life, it made me want to dive into this topic. There were so many things that I’ve always wanted to do when I was younger. As a kid the three things I would’ve loved to do was dance, basketball, and karate. I was extremely shy and was afraid to do anything in front of a crowd. There were so many moments when I wanted to join a dance team and chickened out or just didn’t attempt it. As I mentioned in another post, I finally tried to fulfill my desire to dance during my freshman year of college. I signed up for modern dance, but after the first class I dropped it. I did take a dance gym class in high school, which was a big step for me considering how I am. Although when we got into groups and had to perform, I would literally freak out (even though it was just in front of our gym class). The desire to play basketball and do karate didn’t last as long as my desire for dance, but it’s sad that I quit karate after a day. My second year of college I did take a basketball class. It was really fun, and I’m a little sad that I never tried to do it when I was a preteen/teen. I’ll never know how things could’ve been if I would have pushed through that fear.

          Now looking back on all the things that I’ve missed out on it makes me want to push through and let go of my fears. Today, If I had to pick three things I would like to do, it would be: Becoming more social (like joining groups), travel alone, and believe it or not, I would still like to dance. I’ve been an introvert most of my life and I would really like to push through the fear and just become a little more social. I can’t even fake it. If I’m put into social settings, I just become awkward and very reserved. I keep thinking that maybe I just have to wait until the right time, but if I am being honest, I don’t think there will ever be the perfect time. It’s just something that I would have to jump into. The next one is not being afraid to travel alone. I see women traveling alone all the time and I wish that I wasn’t afraid to do that. I am always looking at what could go wrong rather than what could go right? As a person who always wants to travel and see the world sometimes there will be people who don’t want to go to some of the places that you want to go, and it’s okay to go alone. I have a long travel list, and I don’t want to miss out on seeing the places that I’ve dreamed of visiting. As I check off each destination it just makes me excited to see more of the world. I just fear that I might not ever be brave enough to take that step. If I fear solo traveling that much then maybe I just need to join a travel group, but then again that would coincide with the fear of being more social and joining groups. Maybe I can merge the two together and feed two birds with one scone.

          Last but certainly not least, dance. The desire to dance has always been there, it just slightly changes over time. In the last 7 to 8 years, I just really wanted to take a ballroom dance class. I want to learn the waltz, tango, rumba, foxtrot, swing, salsa, cha-cha and many more. This one is really hard to attempt. My husband hates dancing. It is a no, it’s a never for him. As we know, dancing can be a little sensual and he’s not comfortable with me dancing with someone else. One of my fears is that I will never get that chance to just let go and dance. There was a story that stuck with me about a lady who always wanted to dance, when she got older, she physically wasn’t able to, and she said her advice to people who always wanted to dance is to stop being afraid and just dance. She missed her opportunity and felt the need to share it with others, so they won’t make the same mistakes. I really hope that one day I will be able to. Until then I guess I will be dancing alone in my living room. What are some things that you would want to do if fear wasn’t a factor? Share in the comment section below!