Elle Rey📚

          I was sitting at my desk the other day, staring in a daze, and I saw something that I remember wanting for a long time. It was on my list for a while and now it was in my possession. It made me look at all the items that were previously on the lists that I now have. It started off as just a desire or want, but now it’s mine. It made me think about all the times when I would write different things on my list and cross them off once I have them and replace them with something else that I wanted. The cycle continued. Is there something that you collect for fun? A Wishlist of things that you hope to have or bring you joy? In that moment it made me think about faith and manifesting. When I typed those things on my list I typed them with an attitude of certainty. I didn’t doubt that I wouldn’t have them. I wrote them as if I would for sure have them, and it was just a matter of time when. Some came easy, some took some time to get my hands on, but I got them. It made me wonder. What if I actually wrote down my wants in life with that type of certainty?

          They say that when you try to manifest things you can’t have any doubt. You have to genuinely believe that it can happen. It’s like saying affirmations and not believing a word that you say. It’s like saying you have faith but at the first sign of a roadblock you start to doubt it. As a Christian, it made me think a lot about faith. I was listening to an inspirational book (Crazy Faith) on audible as I was working out. The writer said why do we trust the manufacturer that made the chair you’re sitting in, but we can’t trust God. We automatically use certain items expecting them to work. We trust that it will, but we don’t trust that God can make a way out of no way. Maybe you have a different religion, but you probably can still relate to what I’m saying about faith and trust. So, at this very moment, I’m taking on a new attitude. I opened the note section on my phone (where I usually keep my wish-lists), and I made a new list of everything that I want to do and accomplish. And I had to write it without fear and uncertainty.

          I know it’s a little scary if you’re used to thinking a certain way, but there comes a point in time where you have to really think about the things you wanted and obtained versus the things that you wanted and haven’t received YET. No matter how big or how small the want was, can you recall your thought process in those moments? Was it cloudy or clear?  Did it feel like you were stating facts or fiction? Ask yourself those questions and really marinate on it. It can be quite liberating when you find the correlation between doubt and disappointment.