Elle Rey📚

          This week’s post will be fairly short. I was going to skip this week, but since I skipped the first Thursday after the move, I decided to go ahead and give another weekly update. I will say not much has changed since my last post. I’ve still been adjusting, trying to figure out what’s next. I watched something recently where someone said they started to really thrive after they stopped caring so much. They said once they finally stopped worrying about this and that and picked up that “so what” mentality that’s when everything shifted. I thought a lot about that, I tend to care too much. I’m always anxious and I feel a lot intensely, and it’s honestly exhausting. I would like to eventually get to a place where I can just live life in a way where I don’t let pressure get to me as much as it does. I internalize so much that it’s hard to come out of this mental prison. So, the goal for the rest of the summer is to breathe through it and shake it off. Easier said than done, but as long as I keep trying it will eventually stick.

          On a positive note, I’ve been trying to adjust my health choices and dedicate more time to self-care. Through the stress it’s been hard to keep up with my previous routine, so I’ve been focusing on getting back into the swing of things. I’m still not completely unpacked. I’ve been so drained throughout the move and adjusting to my new normal, but I’m slowing adding things back into my routine. Since I’m obviously being pushed out of my comfort zone, I feel that this is the time to try new things and discover new things about myself. The important thing is that I don’t let this divorce break my spirit. After losing loved ones and then my marriage failing, I understand the importance of time more than ever. I hate that I didn’t have more time with loved ones who left this world way too soon, and I hate that I stayed longer than I should have in my marriage. I constantly think about the time that I missed out on with family, and I also think of the years I spent drained and depressed with someone who clearly fell out of love with me a long time ago. Both instances taught me the value of time. Moving forward, I don’t want to take the family I still have for granted, nor do I ever want to stay in something that drains me. We only get one life to live, so live it to the best of your ability. XoXo ❤