Elle Rey📚

          It’s hard to believe that it’s officially the last month of 2024. This year has been one crazy year, and not the usual crazy. It’s been odd, but also enlightening. It’s like a lot of truths were exposed this year, and so many people are tired and overwhelmed. I’ve definitely learned a lot this year. It’s like something in the air just clicked, and I think I need to rewind and pick up where I left off at age 25. Everything felt like it was on track and lining up. I had a plan, and I just needed to complete some things, so I could finally move to my dream city. I was in good spirits, and there was just one thing that was weighing on me. I wanted my heart to be at peace before I started this new life I had planned. I decided to get closure. My ex invited me for frozen yogurt, and he knew I was a lover of frozen yogurt back then. We were broken up for almost 2 years, and I thought about not going, but I felt that this could be the closing chapter of our story. Since everything in my life was lining up at the time it seemed like perfect timing. Well, to make a long story short the meeting went in the opposite direction. We got back together and got married, and that put an end to my moving plans. I had to reroute my life path.

          In the beginning of my blogging days, I mentioned how I changed my major about seven times, and when I finally stuck with a field, I ended up going to grad school for something completely different. I was initially in the field of fashion marketing and merchandising. I needed a certain amount of experience in retail before doing what I wanted to do. I wanted to do something in visual marketing, and then down the line become a buyer. All of a sudden, all of that changed. After years of wanting to be in that world (since I was in middle school), I was over it like the wind. I wanted to break into a new field after graduate school, but it was not an easy field to break into at all. After a few years of hitting walls, I lost interest in it. I kept losing interest in things that I once loved, but one day, a couple of years ago, I mentioned how there was one thing that I never stopped loving. For so long it was in the hobby category, and I never really thought about wanting to do that as a career. It was right in front of my face all along. I mentioned it in a past post, but I never exposed what it was (in order to protect it). I feel like when it comes to your dream you have to protect it, especially in the infancy stage.

          So, what now? Now, I’m going to restart my path. I have a new city that I want to start my next chapter in. I’m ready for a fresh start. I’ve always said that I felt like I didn’t belong here since I was a kid. I used to listen to Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson in my room, dreaming of the day that I would move out of this town. After going to college and getting a taste of life outside of here just solidified that dream. I was devasted when I had to come back, and I would often run into people, and they would say “What are you doing here? You know you’re not supposed to be here.” It’s like they knew it too. It was a reminder that I was limiting myself. I kept forcing myself to fit here, and it’s like I’m trying to force a circle in a triangle shape.

          Looking back, I don’t regret my choices. Me having to stay in this town bought me extra time with loved ones that are no longer here. My family is more important than any dream, success, or material thing. I wouldn’t trade them in for anything in the world. I also believe in things happening for a reason, and maybe my plan needed to reroute. If I had stuck to that first career field, I probably would’ve been over it before it truly began. Maybe this scenic route altered my journey so I could merge onto the right path. If that’s the case, then I’m grateful. Now I just need to prepare and get ready for the start of my new journey. It’s time to hit the reset button!