Well, there goes another year. 2024 was interesting to say the least. What a challenging time! Now it’s time for a new chapter. The last 3 years have been the hardest 3 years, but now, it’s bamboo season! I’m claiming it! It’s a time for rapid growth and a time for change in the right direction. I’m a little anxious, but curious to see what this new chapter will bring. The focus for next year will be moving forward and getting organized. There’s so much that I have to do. I’ve decluttered a lot this year, but I need to declutter so much more. I plan to keep myself so busy to the point where I don’t have time to think about everything that’s happening. Between all the loss/grief I endured, and a failing marriage (that feels like another form of grief), I almost lost myself completely. I fell into a hole so deep that I never thought I would come out of it. It got pretty dark but thank God that I’m still here and I’m still pushing through.
I’ve learned so much about myself, and it took me a second to see what was happening around me. The crazy thing about major life changes, is that it makes it hard to deal with anything else. I was so consumed by my grief that I didn’t even want to deal with anything else. However, 2024 made sure that I saw what I needed to see. I couldn’t run from the truth any longer. I had to let go of the “If I ignore it, it will go away” method. It doesn’t go away. It just intensifies. Sometimes it’s the “not knowing” that makes things harder, but when a decision has been made, it allows you to finally breathe. Instead of being at a standstill I can plan and move forward to what’s next.
If you would have told me 5 to 6 years ago that my blog (that was supposed to be about my journey to success after grad school) would end up being life after grief and divorce, I would’ve never believed it. I probably would’ve never started this blog had I known. On the other hand, I’ve been enjoying going back and reading my old posts from the beginning. Some of it is heartbreaking, but some of the posts make me smile. I’m the underdog, the little engine that could. 😂 My journey was a rough one, but I’m still standing and that counts for something. So, cheers to everyone who made it another year! Cheers to all the people who pushed through life’s hardships! There’s a reason why you’re still standing. Life will push you and push you until it knocks you down, but we got up and pushed back! And that is something to CELEBRATE!
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Happy Early New Years Everyone! I Hope and Pray that everyone has a safe night, filled with cherished memories! ❤
Elle Rey📚 